ashamed of 的用法ashamed of 表示以……为耻请问语境有这么严重吗,要真的为“耻”吗?比如说 我的口语

I was blind, but I was ashamed of it if it was known. I refused to use a white stick and 36 asking for help. After all, I was a teenage girl, and I couldn’t bear people to look at me and think I was not 37 them. I must have been a terrible danger on the roads. Coming across me wandering through the traffic, motorists probably would have to step 38 on their brakes. Apart from that, there were all sorts of disasters that used to occur on the way to and from work.
One evening, I got off the bus about halfway home where I had to change buses, and as usual I 39 something. “I’m awfully sorry,” I said and stepped forward only to run into it again. When it happened a third time, I realized I had been 40 to a lamppost. This was just one of the 41 things that constantly happened to me. So I carried on and found the bus stop, which was a request stop, where the bus wouldn’t stop 42 passengers wanted to get on or off. No one else was there and I had to try to guess if the bus had arrived.
Generally in this situation, because I hated 43 I was blind by asking for help, I tried to guess at the sound. Sometimes I would 44a big lorry and stand there feeling stupid as it drew away. In the end, I usually managed to 45 my pride and ask someone at the stop for help.
46 on this particular evening no one joined me at the stop; it seemed that everyone had suddenly decided not to travel by bus. Of course I heard plenty of buses pass, or I thought I did. But because I had given up stopping them 47 making a fool of myself. I let them all go by. I stood there alone for half an hour without stopping one. Then I gave up. I decided to walk on to the next stop.

小题1:	A．tended B．liked C．hated D．objected

小题2:	A．like B．against C．at D．for

小题3:	A．bravely B．rapidly C．slowly D．cautiously

小题4:	A．came into B．ran into C．got into D．turned into

小题5:	A．saying B．talking C．apologizing D．arguing

小题6:	A．unexpected B．arbitrary C．objective D．stupid

小题7:	A．if B．when C．unless D．as long as

小题8:	A．showing B．accepting C．representing D．understanding

小题9:	A．plan B．stop C．get on D．ask for

小题10:

A．reveal B．substitute C．submit D．swallow

小题11:

A．But B．So C．For D．While

小题12:

A．in spite of B．for fear of C．instead of D．in terms of