英语翻译can you feel my love~Sddenly I become more and more miss

英语翻译
can you feel my love~
Sddenly I become more and more miss you ,
I don't know the reason.
I always said I'm very tired,but I am still willing to write down our story in my diary like this,
endlessly.Is this love?
On earth I do really love you,
or that's only my imaginary love?
I don't dare to think of it,
I'm afaid that result will make me disappointed and it willlose its own beauty after I query myself sensibly.
Because it will change as if the river embankment--all rubbish,
all darkness.
This is the feeling of heart-distressed.
However,you don't comprehed.
Is there ''forever" in the world really?
Perhaps the only forever is forever has no forever
Consequently,one's hesrt is desperat.